"For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice." - James 3.16
Selfish ambition. That's what the Lord is talking to me about today. Are my ambitions selfless or selfish? Do I write on this blog because I want my name out there, or because I want recognition, or because I want people to think I'm a great writer? Or do I write on this blog to help and serve you guys, the readers?
That's a big question that requires some soul searching. And it's a question we can all ask ourselves. Whatever it is we do, whatever we're passionate about, whatever keeps us awake at night...is it about our selfish ambition or do we have an ambition to help others?
My husband is a writer, too, and so we've been talking about this lately. Why do we want to write? It cannot be for our own fame or renown; it must be for the glory of God, helping and serving others.
This is particularly difficult in a culture that promotes and praises selfish ambition, isn't it? To really lay down our lives, pick up our crosses, and follow Jesus is completely opposite of what our culture deems good and right and maybe even healthy.
What if we didn't choose the easy life? What if we didn't choose the life that got the most for us (the most fame, the most money, the most comfort, the most vacations, the most followers)? Rather, what if we chose the life that did the most for others? It would require a lot of sacrifice. Picking up a cross usually does. But Jesus asks no less of us.
Let's ask the Lord to replace our selfish ambitions with selfless ambitions. Let's chase hard after a life that serves others rather than ourselves. Easier said than done, yes. But with God, totally possible.