Monday, December 15, 2014
Lately, the enemy has been poking at all my insecurities as a mom. All my shortcomings and failings and guilt are resurfacing and to be honest, at times it fills me with fear. I start to become afraid of what God is asking me to do next.
Chris and I have been talking a lot lately about what is next for our family. We feel God leading us toward foster care once again. And it scares me. I'm afraid I'm not enough. I'm afraid I won't be patient enough, loving enough, kind enough, gentle enough to add another child from hard places to my home. But as I thought through all my fears the other night, I heard the Lord whisper, "But all of those things you think you don't possess enough of, are the very fruit of My Spirit."
Oh yeah. As Christians, we possess His Spirit, He lives in us. And the fruit of God's Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control. The very things I need. The very things I'm worried I don't have enough of.
But this is not some checklist of character traits I need to somehow come up with. These are the things that God's Spirit produces in us because that's what He does, not because I deserve it or because I'm focused enough or strong enough or had enough of them to begin with. Simply because that's what the Spirit does.
So we don't need to be afraid that we aren't enough for whatever God is telling us to do. We aren't. But He is. And His Spirit will produce those fruits in us and THAT will be enough.
In what area are you afraid you aren't enough?